Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Sarcasm alert

Wow!  My weigh in was fantastic today!   I couldn't be any happier!  Seriously!  I mean, who wouldn't be happy with a point 8 pound weight gain!!  Yahoo!!!    Yes 8/10ths of a pound!  Yes there is the sarcasm!!!

Ok.  Looking at it realistically...I'm NOT happy!   I don't want any weight gain!  I can hope that it was simply an anomaly if not drinking enough water yesterday....or something super salty in my diet!  I had been showing a maintain all week long and then this morning...bam a gain!   And let's be honest...I wasn't all that happy with a maintain either!!!

I know where I can and need to cleanup my eating.   I'm doing pretty good for breakfast and lunch but then hit dinner hungry and well I just eat too much.   Still not to bad in the grand scheme of things but too much to lose weight (obviously!)

I need to kick up exercise also!!!  I am trying to pick up more steps but I need to kick it up another notch!!!  Big time!!!












Monday, January 09, 2017

Controlling

Wow I want to have something sweet!  It's killing me!!!!

Ok maybe not killing me...but anyone that has gotten sucked into a habit of eating ice cream each evening, or a cookie after each meal, or really anything sweet that becomes a habit knows.   They know that it becomes something your body really craves and wants!  Big time!!!

I'm on at least day three of no big sweet treat like that.  Yesterday we ate at a place that has a big salad/fruit:/soup/dessert bar.   (Hoss's).  I actually did pretty well with my food.   I had salad - small scoop of macaroni salad, four tortilla chips with cheese,  a half cup of soup, one yeast roll and some cottage cheese.   I really lusted after the dessert bar....bad.   I drooled at the thought of the soft serve ice cream.  But I knew that I needed to cut the sweet treat habit.  So I grabbed a bit of fruit and called that my sweet treat!    Victory!!!

Admittedly, last night I really really really wanted some ice cream, or a cookie, or something sweet!  Anything sweet really!  I did not cave though!!!!

I was thinking on Saturday morning about where I am and how my first week went.  I had some victories for sure!

**** I tracked...every bite....every day!!!

****I actually got an average of 60 ounces of water each day!  (This is huge because I was struggling with even getting in a measley single 16.9 ounce bottle down the hatch!).  

**** I was extremely cognizant of my steps and I worked to really move more!!!

So I had some great victories!!!

Now let's look at the areas for improvement....

**** While I tracked my food I wasn't exactly where I would like to be.  I made better options for sure...but there is room for improvement....and I need to get my calorie count back down!!!

Calorie chart....

**** I was cognizant of my steps and worked to add some into my routine...but I needed 38.5 miles if walking/self propelled activity.   While I did walk 57,286 steps...that only made 25.28 miles.    So I am 13.22 miles shy of my weekly goal.   I know that a trip to the gym and an hour on an exercise bike will catch me up...or in the summer when I am riding I will gain some miles!!!  So I'm not too concerned yet...but I have to fix that wee little deficit!!

So....I finally worked up the final numbers for the year!  

Hiking----180.67 miles
Bike----105.57 miles (not bad considering I only ride the last month of the year)
Running---168.41 miles .
Walking----443.50. (that was just walks...not including all the puddly steps at work and whatnot!)

Total of miles self propelled?  898.15

Soooo I have to more than double my miles for the year 2017  in order for me to reach my 2017 miles!

So on that note....accountability is important...

Please if anyone wants to join me on myfitnesspal I am mfclingan

And I amhttps://www.fitbit.com/user/5B2VZ3 on fitbit!  





Thursday, January 05, 2017

Happy blogiversary to me!!!

Happy blogiversary to me!!

Yes, it has been 11 years ago today that I started this blog!  Honestly I sit back and wonder where the time has gone.   But then in the same breath I look back at the girl that started this blog.  How far I've come!

I am not really going to do a look back over the years blog.  If you want to see that you can go visit the ten year blogiversary post. (Happy blogiversary to me!!

Yes, it has been 11 years ago today that I started this blog!  Honestly I sit back and wonder where the time has gone.   But then in the same breath I look back at the girl that started this blog.  How far I've come!

I am not really going to do a look back over the years blog.  If you want to see that you can go visit the ten year blogiversary post.  If you are really rambunctious you can go back to that first post…..which was written in 2006 or maybe just visit them all!
I posted in 2007 but didn't acknowledge the year anniversary.   Or maybe read the post from 2008 where I once again didn't see any significance about the date but where I clearly was ‘restarting’ and spoke of extravagant plans!  2009 was another simple post as I wrote about going back to the gym!!  2010 and I was lamenting about how I swore I would never be over 200 pounds again...yet there I was and restarting.   2011 was the first year I didn't post on my blogiversary (or course I wasn't celebrating it yet!). But I posted in the fourth about ‘day one’.  In fairness on the sixth I wrote about the endless chest pains and the round after round of tests to try to figure out what was wrong with me and how I had been just cleared from the doctor to return to Zumba!  My blogiversary passed in 2012 without any fanfare either….I was on track...I was strong and theoretically I should have been successful….except for the ‘appointment’ I alluded to in the post….it was marriage counseling and while I'm not going to blame that, I know it affected everything!!  In 2013 I was going strong on January 5th.   I was doing great  but in that blog post I talked about the emotions.  My world was unraveling around me and it eventually pulled me away from my efforts for a better me.  2014 was another post about what I was doing to try to get myself back together and on track (weighing daily).  In 2015 I totally missed posting on my blogiversary again.  I did post on January 4th.  I was newly separated and trying to figure out which end was up   And of course 2016...which somehow got on the wrong date of January 3  even though it was posted on the correct date!  (I wrote it a few days earlier and scheduled the post) 

I actually hadn't planned on looking at each year of my posts from this day.  However I'm glad that I did.   What a journey.   A lot of ups and a lot of downs.  So many downs...I can see why jason says he doesn't like to look at pictures of me from back then...he says I just had a sad look in my eyes and the posts were underlyingly sad.  But regardless…. here I am, still ticking and pushing forward.  I am happier and emotionally in a much better place now than I have been in many of the previous years!

What struck me though...I have started over on so many years.   January is always the time to restart for so many people because of that umph that hits us all to restart and get things back on track.   And for that I am glad.   We need that push yea me round.   But this year I am going to focus on every day being my New Year!  I am going to focus on every day being my blogiversary.   If I fall down, I just have to pick myself up and start again the next day...the next hour...the next minute!!!  Waiting for the new year is not acceptable anymore!!!

So I am trucking along on the 2017 in 2017 project.  I'm not quite meeting the mark each day.   I need 5.55 miles each day….10k of steps is roughly 4.5 miles.


  But considering I'm mostly hitting that this week and I will call it a success!!!  (Bike riding should theoretically help me with those missing miles...I hope!) 


And because I'm a geek that needs to see things in black and white, I  put together a binder to keep track of my stats for this challenge 



I have also been religiously tracking my food. 

AND water….I haven't tracked water, it always seemed annoying to to...but they must have updated the app because now I can just click on the 17ounce bottle every time I finish a water bottle and it adds it right in!  Woo hoo!!  Easy peasy!  

I'm making this MY year!!!

Wednesday, January 04, 2017

My cats think I'm crazy

My cats think I'm crazy....and they may be right!!!!


So I challenged myself (ok I copied the idea....and challenged myself with someone else's idea) with 2017 miles in 2017.   I got a Fitbit for Christmas (gift was received in New Years Eve, just in time for the new year) which was perfect!!!  I know that 2000 steps is roughly a mile...perfect, a 10k step day would be about 5 miles...which is coincidentally almost exactly what I needed each day (ok so I need a bit over 5 miles but we will worry about that later...a nice long bike ride will eat up those bits and pieces of miles!)


On the first and second I easily got my steps in as jason and I were out and about and moving.  (10,264 and 11,985 respectively) and I didn't even have to think about it.   On the third I returned to work.  I wanted to see what an average day for me was.  An average day meaning no exercise and no going out of my way to add steps.   I only took 3575 steps...and I moved a bit more at work than normal.  Whew....I am going to have to step it up on work days!!!      Today, the fourth I was being a lazy bum and had the smaller number of steps (I was at 3k) until after work when Jason (who was recovering from a stomach bug) wanted to take a wee little walk.  All of a sudden a cold stroll around the park skyrocketed my steps and I got home and was sitting within spitting distance of my 10k step goal!!!  


After working on my dollhouse a bit, I sat back and thought about those steps.  I really don't want to get behind in my 2017 miles!   It's easy to say 'oh I'll pick up those missed miles on the bike this summer'. Or 'we will hike an extra mile or two this weekend to make up for those miles'.  It is so easy to do that!  But I don't want to procrastinate myself out of the challenge!  I don't want to get way far behind the 8 ball...aiming for only 5 miles already means that I'm running a bit shy of what I need each week!  If I get too far behind I will give up.   I know me!!! And I will give up!   


So I trotted myself over to my stair stepper...it was given to me and I've used it...ohhh about zero times!!!


I hopped on and started rolling.   3 minutes in and my legs were on FIRE!!!  I hopped off and sat down.  Man I still had 2k steps to go.   So I walked back and forth in my tiny abode to get my steps.  (And I hopped on the demon stair stepper thingy a few more times...my goal is to make it to 4 minutes on it!).   The cats just watched me pace and walk.  I could see the look of curiosity in their eyes as they watched my madness!!


I don't have many steps over 10k....in fact I came to bed to read as soon as I hit 10k....so I will most likely finish my day at 10,004 steps and that's ok....because I'm still in the game!!!!


Tomorrow's goal is to make a chart for me to track my steps/miles!


I started tracking again on myfitnesspal.  And yes...I'm doing more than logging on to hold my streak (I'm only at day four since I let the last one go!!) I am actually logging my food!  Imagine that!!!


Today was my official weigh in day...I showed a slight loss from last week...pretty much a maintain. Regardless, I have my beginning number and I am ready to rock this year and lose this weight once and for all!!!!




Monday, January 02, 2017

No failure

Day two of the new year has come and is almost gone.....


How many New Years resolutions have already been broken around the world??? Lots and lots I imagine. I think the worst part of New Years resolutions is that people set goals and within a day or two, or maybe a week or a month or however long into it  they mess up and they throw up their hands as give up.    The secret to attaining goals is to realize there will be mess-ups and faltering steps but to not throw in the towel.  Regroup and move forward!!


But let's not worry about other people's New Years resolutions. How am I doing on my 2017 goals, challenges, hopes and dreams???


Well I am doing fairly well!


Food:   Yesterday the first was excellent.  Today I'm a bit over my calories count , but I'm feeling pretty good about it because my lunch was a salad...a healthy option.  So while my calories were high it was still less than a sandwich and fries AND it was more nutritious and healthy!  Win!!!!!


Activity:   

    *No formal exercise but I'm ok with it.

     *.  2017 miles in 2017?   I'm spot on with my steps!  Why yes I am!   I know that 10k steps is roughly 5 miles and I'm sitting at over 20k steps!!!    I know I need a bit more than 5 miles a day...so that puts me spot on!!  Woohoo!


So the big news?  I have long contemplated getting a Fitbit.   I've looked but I don't make a ton of money...(hahaha I don't even make enough to survive...even though I work full time..that's why I have to live with my parents since my divorce...)...so spending the money for it has held me back. My aaaahhh-maze-Ing boyfriend got me a Fitbit for Christmas.  (I got the Alta...the one I've been looking  at most recently....).   



So I put it on my arm on Saturday night (we exchanged gifts in Saturday).  And in Sunday I was shocked to see my numbers at 9500 when we got ready to settle on the couch for the evening.  I laughed and walked the length of the rooms two times laughing saying I needed to get my!10k steps.  But eventually settled down on the couch just knowing that I wouldn't have a problem getting the at that point (after the few laps) 300 steps.  And yes...day one 10,264.    Today was over 11k!  Yay!!    I know...work days will be the tough one since I work a desk job!!!!


Ohhh...and he also gave me the money for my dollhouse lights!!!  The mini mansion (that's my name for the small house I have just remodeled)

is wired for lights..I asked for the light wire kit for my birthday and my parents supplied!  But I needed the actual lights!   I am so excited to get the money to buy!   I already knew what I wanted so it was a simple thing of logging into the site and hitting buy!   I showed Jason and he approved of my choices. 


Let's see...went into some outlets today and I used some Christmas money (thanks mom and dad) to buy some new tennis shoes...for everyday use and walking!!!!  Yay!!!


So I'm set for a bit!!


So this weekend we wanted to just get away and have a nice quiet weekend to ring in the new year and exchange our Christmas gifts. We succeeded. But we also had some fun....


We visited the Stafford Civil War Park and checked out the historic sites and followed some of the trials....their trail system is all messed up and very poorly marked but we got out and enjoyed it regardless....no big hike..just a bit of fresh air and some exercise.




We went into Fredericksburg and up to Woodbridge to hit up some stores.


We also checked out the Aquia Episcopal church....built in 1750....it's so cool looking!!!  The cap stones (the white stones) are from the same quarry that the capital building used.



And the graveyard was old and unique!!



Look at the grave stones with skill and crossbones...so neat!!!



We were checking out the church and looking in the windows. (we were there on a Sunday so no tours available...we plan on going back someday to get a weekday tour!). Jason being curious did his normal routine of trying all doors....he is always doing that and looking in books and crannies!   On the side door his eyes opened wide when the door opened at his touch!  Immediately an alarm began to sound...LOUD!!!!!  Oops!!!!    We did call the church office to apologize and let them know what happened..and which door.  And then we decided to stay until someone came...seriously...historic building..unlocked.  What if someone stumbled upon it and did damage and it somehow got pinned on us!!!  The pastor dude was nice about it when he showed up about 10 minutes later.    So yeah....we set off the alarms in a really old building!!  Oops!   Will we continue to try doors and look in nooks  and crannies??  I'm sure!! And I sure hope so because we see so many neat things that way!!  And yeah...I totally think that they should have offered us a private tour to us for our troubles!!!  Hahaha







Saturday, December 31, 2016

Farewell 2016 post



I decided to focus on the positive...and not even talk about what I didn't do!!!!  


Three things I did right in 2016


  1.   I took the big scary step of giving my heart to someone. After my marriage and the hurt involved it was a huge step and very difficult!!!    But I finally decided that it was better to take the leap and risk a broken heart versus never love against.  If it ended then I would treasure the happy memories!   As a result I have experienced a love like I have never experienced!  
  2. Realizing that possessions only weigh me down....and starting the purge of unnecessary items from my life. (Stuff like games I will never play...books I will never again read...etc.). Slowly but surely!  (Very slowly ....a garbage bag here and there!  Either to the garbage or to goodwill!)    This has been difficult...I didn't realize how much I am tied to possessions.  I worry about getting rid of stuff...what if I need it next week???  But I have found with each purge I feel so proud of myself!  
  3. Taking the plunge into a hobby that I had contemplated and dreamed about for a long time.   What fun it has been to work on dollhouses....it combines my jack of all trades master of mine mentality to crafts!!!!  To do a dollhouse you need to have a bit of knowledge in so many aspects...and the projects are usually shorter than some of these long crafts (seriously a quilt can take months...as can a cross stitch) so I don't get bored and put the project aside!!!


Three things to improve in 2017


  1. Finances....savings. I need to build my savings!!!  My car repair depleted it almost totally!!!  (Have I mentioned that dollhouse stuff can be expensive??)
  2. Lose weight. This is my year!!!
  3. Running, biking hiking...consistency through the year in these activities will make it easier and more fun!


One word to be the word of the year!


Happy !    


I go into the year satisfied with some aspects of my life.   I am in a relationship where I am quite satisfied  happy and content.   But I am not content with my job and I would love to be living on my own again and because of that I struggle with satisfaction and happiness.  But I need to remind myself to be  satisfied and happy  where I am at right now and at each pout in my life.  That includes my current weight, my current running pace, and everything else.  I don't have to be content where I am at....but I have to be satisfied and happy!   I have to say, I want more but I am happy  with where I am at until things change!!!  I am satisfied....and therefore happy!!!


And a mantra/phrase for the new year....


I hold the keys to my satisfaction and happiness!!!!



My ace in the hole for losing weight is that Jason seems to be very interested in making a change in his diet and lifestyle also.   He had talked to me a few months back about juicing.  He wanted me to try it and in a moment of weakness I agreed.   I did make the proclamation that I didn't want to do it in then because I had a vacation upcoming ...then thanksgiving...then another vacation...then my birthday...then Christmas.  So he agreed to early January.  I kinda of forgot about it all.....and admittedly maybe hoped that he would forget (or move onto something else)!   But nope he brought it up the other week when he talked about his weight and his plans. (He doesn't need to lose much but he has his few 'vanity pounds' he wants to drop (pounds to drop not a pant size but to be under a certain number on the scales).   So it's coming...and honestly, although the fear of the taste looms big, I am somewhat interested in what kind of loss I can have that week...and of course how I will feel!!!   (I told him he better come up with really good tasting juice combinations!!). And if I feel awesome and drop mad pounds I just may commit to more juicing than a week!


I of course set the 2017 miles in 2017.....I have also joined the Hub City 100 Miler...100 miles in 100 days.   Jason and I have talked about ramping up our hiking again....and we have talked about biking the whole length of the canal.  And we have mentioned restarting the running challenge....so lots of activities for me in the new year.





I decided to focus on the positive...and not even talk about what I didn't do!!!!  


Three things I did right in 2016


  1.   I took the big scary step of giving my heart to someone. After my marriage and the hurt involved it was a huge step and very difficult!!!    But I finally decided that it was better to take the leap and risk a broken heart versus never love against.  If it ended then I would treasure the happy memories!   As a result I have experienced a love like I have never experienced!  
  2. Realizing that possessions only weigh me down....and starting the purge of unnecessary items from my life. (Stuff like games I will never play...books I will never again read...etc.). Slowly but surely!  (Very slowly ....a garbage bag here and there!  Either to the garbage or to goodwill!)    This has been difficult...I didn't realize how much I am tied to possessions.  I worry about getting rid of stuff...what if I need it next week???  But I have found with each purge I feel so proud of myself!  
  3. Taking the plunge into a hobby that I had contemplated and dreamed about for a long time.   What fun it has been to work on dollhouses....it combines my jack of all trades master of mine mentality to crafts!!!!  To do a dollhouse you need to have a bit of knowledge in so many aspects...and the projects are usually shorter than some of these long crafts (seriously a quilt can take months...as can a cross stitch) so I don't get bored and put the project aside!!!


Three things to improve in 2017


  1. Finances....savings. I need to build my savings!!!  My car repair depleted it almost totally!!!  (Have I mentioned that dollhouse stuff can be expensive??)
  2. Lose weight. This is my year!!!
  3. Running, biking hiking...consistency through the year in these activities will make it easier and more fun!


One word to be the word of the year!


Happy !    


I go into the year satisfied with some aspects of my life.   I am in a relationship where I am quite satisfied  happy and content.   But I am not content with my job and I would love to be living on my own again and because of that I struggle with satisfaction and happiness.  But I need to remind myself to be  satisfied and happy  where I am at right now and at each pout in my life.  That includes my current weight, my current running pace, and everything else.  I don't have to be content where I am at....but I have to be satisfied and happy!   I have to say, I want more but I am happy  with where I am at until things change!!!  I am satisfied....and therefore happy!!!


And a mantra/phrase for the new year....


I hold the keys to my satisfaction and happiness!!!!



My ace in the hole for losing weight is that Jason seems to be very interested in making a change in his diet and lifestyle also.   He had talked to me a few months back about juicing.  He wanted me to try it and in a moment of weakness I agreed.   I did make the proclamation that I didn't want to do it in then because I had a vacation upcoming ...then thanksgiving...then another vacation...then my birthday...then Christmas.  So he agreed to early January.  I kinda of forgot about it all.....and admittedly maybe hoped that he would forget (or move onto something else)!   But nope he brought it up the other week when he talked about his weight and his plans. (He doesn't need to lose much but he has his few 'vanity pounds' he wants to drop (pounds to drop not a pant size but to be under a certain number on the scales).   So it's coming...and honestly, although the fear of the taste looms big, I am somewhat interested in what kind of loss I can have that week...and of course how I will feel!!!   (I told him he better come up with really good tasting juice combinations!!). And if I feel awesome and drop mad pounds I just may commit to more juicing than a week!


I of course set the 2017 miles in 2017.....I have also joined the Hub City 100 Miler...100 miles in 100 days.   Jason and I have talked about ramping up our hiking again....and we have talked about biking the whole length of the canal.  And we have mentioned restarting the running challenge....so lots of activities for me in the new year.




Thursday, December 29, 2016

Lofty or realistic??

Well I'm not feeling as crazy out of control as I was last week!   I managed to make it through the Christmas week between my Wednesday weigh ins  with a maintain.  I will take it!!!


I am splurging a bit this week....there is a cookie that my mom only makes at Christmas that she just made for me!   I've been after her to make them and she just did!  (Thank you mommy!!!)   But I'm going to try to moderate my intake.   Luckily one of mom's customers also loves these cookies so he got half the batch (apparently he doesn't share his with his family ...these cookies are that awesome!!)


This past weekend I had thoughts of popping into myfitnesspal to keep my streak alive...but I totally forgot and I lost my streak.  I was over a year of logins!   It's sad to let it go....but in a way I'm happy.  It was a total false streak!  Out of those 400 days I probably only logged 1/4 of them...maybe half!!!!   I wish I could turn that stupid streak thing off...it's pressure!!!!   I'm sure I will be logging soon enough and the streak will begin again and the pressure will mount as the streak grows.  In the meantime I'm just sitting back and enjoying not worrying about that stupid streak!!!!!


So this morning I saw someone that has challenged themselves to walking 2017 miles in the year 2017.  That's 5.52 miles a day or 168 miles a month!   That's a LOT!!!   Ok before I start talking myself out of this...they say aim for 10k steps a day.   That's roughly 5 miles right there.  Maybe I really should invest in that Fitbit to be able to count all those random steps.....hmm or just count the actual walks, hikes, runs and bike rides.


***In the summer jason and I walked a lot in the evenings it was easy for us to knock out between 3 and 6 miles in an evening.

****In the winter spring and fall  we hiked a lot...it was average for us to do 8-10 mile hikes.  

*** we have been biking and that racks up the miles fast!!  (We are talking about doing a through ride on the canal one long weekend...that's 184 miles in one weekend!!  Plus we will be riding a lot in preparation for the big ride!)

***running. There is 40-50 miles a month with simple 3-4 mile runs.

***if I walk on my lunch break there is a mile....times each day of the week gives me five miles a week....25 a month.  


Yes...this is actually doable!!!!


So I guess I have started laying out my plans for 2017!!! I may as well finish now!!!


Plans and goals for 2017


  1. Propel myself 2017 miles
  2. Get to my goal weight (50 pounds to lose give or take)
  3. Exercise consistently to rebuild my fitness levels.