Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Eating doesn't make things better

Giving in and eating didn't make me feel better. In fact, it made me feel worse. It added to my blah icky emotional mood by making me disgusted with myself for caving and eating. What did I eat? Cookies. I had put the leftovers in the freezer.....and I remembered them and didn't just pull out one...I pulled out 4...popped them in the microwave and gobbled them up.

I do have to say, the other weekend when I was so determined to not let my emotions rule my eating. And I was determined to control my eating.....to control ONE part of my life. I controlled it and it really did give me a sense of empowerment. Even if it was only over that one small part of my life. Last night I caved....I had no control. I will admit.....I felt great for about 5 minutes (if that). That 5 minutes was coincidentally the 5 (if that) minutes that I was eating the cookies. But after that, my emotions just came back....and in a bigger way because I was then upset about eating.

Sooo my weight this morning 213.8. ARRGGHHHH

Stats for October 5, 2009

2 low fat homemade pecan sticky buns
corn
sauerkraut
grapes
applesauce
pineapple
Spinach Stuffed Shells
2 slices garlic toast
4 (or maybe 5) cinnamon cookies

7 comments:

F. McButter Pants said...

It's ok...just jump right back on the wagon. Everybody screws up at one time or the other.

You can do this!

thanks for the reminder the food doesn't really make you feel better.

Megan @ Megzz Wins At Life said...

It is ok to mess up every once in a while... I mess up ALL the time.. it is what you do next that really matter :-)

Keep your head up girl!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

If you can't lay off the cookies, don't leave them around. I had to ban the foods that I couldn't say no to, even tho my kids groused about it for weeks. Funny, the side effect of my losing weight has been that my children are eating healthier now, too. Win-win, I'd say.

bbubblyb said...

Hang in there MaryFran hopefully things will get better. I know how it is to have that internal stuff going on and you just can't seem to control it.

spunkysuzi said...

I have to admit i can't have things, that are triggers for me, even in the freezer! I just don't have enough self control to be able to keep them in the house.
I know you'll have a great day today :)

Vanessa Miller said...

Uh-oh! Were they small-sized cookies?

Sometimes when my emotions are less serene (when I'm mad for example,) I'll go for a jog. Five minutes of exercise. It makes me feel better and gives a clearer head to deal with myself.

What about trying a short walk around the neighborhood if you are wanting to feel better? Or eating two cookies?

Looking at your eating menu, I don't see much protein. Do you like yogurt?

Remember that you can't eat the same every day. Some days you need more fuel and some days less.

What a Splurge said...

I wish I had the magic answer but I struggle too. But I must say 4 maybe 5 cookies is hardly a bottom-out-hang-your-head-in shame binge. You'll do better today!