Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Shame

I'm so freakin' ashamed. I was at work and I was just dragging. I KNEW I didn't want to go to the gym. I was hungry and my legs just felt HEAVY! SO what did I do??? I went home and ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (ok, not so much ashamed at that one...my stomach had literally been growling for a few hours) and when my husband got home a few minutes after me, I promptly talked him out of going to the gym. ME, the one that babbled about how I hoped he wouldn't wimp out on going to the gym. I swore that we would run our errends and I would ride the exercise bike at home for at least an hour in lieu of the gym. I had such good intentions. I made dinner....and washed the dishes and got on that bike. My legs felt like dead weight. I made it 10 minutes before I gave it up.

I'm a loser!

I am packed and ready for Zumba tonight though. I'm at work...I have my workout clothes, my dinner and my water bottle ready to fill up! No excuses tonight!

This running dialogue in my head....I call it the fat mini me that's in my mind feeding me all of these excuses. And honestly, it's difficult because the excuses are SOOO easy to succumb to!

8 comments:

Moving Mertle said...

ooooh I have days like that. I think its good to have a bit of a rest day so my muscles have time to rebuild and stuff. I also have yoga and pilates tapes to follow at home. They're not so intense as running and the stretches feel SSOOOO good.

Blue~ said...

Snap out of it! roflol. You and me both in a funk then lol.

Reese said...

The mini-you may have gotten her way yesterday, but tonight you will show her with a good zumba workout! :)

You are so not a loser...you are a WINNER! :)

bbubblyb said...

I do think sometimes we make excuses for ourselves but I also think sometimes are bodies just try to tell us we need another day of rest. I try to debate myself as to what I'm really feeling and what my body is really feeling. Regardless though you are not a loser and you shouldn't feel shame. You will go to your Zumba class tonight and kick butt. *hugs*

Shelley said...

I fight those same excuses when I'm supposed to go running by myself - it's such a mental battle some days! Well, yesterday is done and today it sounds like you have a good Zumba plan, so don't beat yourself up any more...

LA said...

*grumble* I know the feeling! I didn't workout yesterday, either. And, I felt bad about it. I guess it's just a side effect of that "being human" thing! Boo. ;)

Congrats on being prepped for a great workout tonight, though! Goooo Zumba!

spunkysuzi said...

Somedays we just need a rest day!! I've had days where my legs just couldn't do what i wanted them to.
You don't need to feel shame at all.

Lovebug6100 said...

Don't beat yourself up!!! It's more self-defeating than anything....On Monday, I went into work super early so I could leave and go to spinning....I was ready to go when my boss decided to have a meeting...a mandatory one...so I didn't leave until my Spinning class was ready to start, and I live 45 minutes away...so I missed it...and was totally ok with that...but I'm going to go today, and for me, that's enough!!