Thursday, April 21, 2011


Weight loss and maintenance is NOT something that is completed and never thought about again.  I am a food addict.  For that reason I know that I will struggle with maintaining for the  rest of my life.  Will it be easy?  Hopefully I  can change my habits and routine enough that my lifestyle fosters a good healthy weight.  Do I want to have to track my food for the rest of my life?  No....but will I have to?   Honestly, I may have least 75% of the time....or even 50% of the time.  I don't know.

What I DO know is that tracking my food.  Keeping a food journal of my 'good eats' is tantamount to my success.  There are so many reasons for me.
     *it keeps me honest.  We all know that if I don't have to write it then it doesn't really count...right???
     *it is a good check to let me know what I'm eating that is good and what is bad
     *It keeps me in line
     *it is my anchor.  I put my food in and it anchors me to this process

Yes, it is my weight loss anchor.  Kinda crazy, but It steadies me.  It keeps me grounded and focused on what I need to be doing.  Without that anchor I tend to drift away.   I may still try to drift (those days when my weight watchers point expenditure is way way way over budget)....but the process of accountability to my food journal anchors me and doesn't let me drift far.

So what other anchors do I have?

For me, it's a mental thing.  I have visions of myself back at my goal weight.  I have visions of myself that happy confident person.  That anchors me to this process.  Because I know that what I'm doing right now to lose the weight, will help bring that person back.  And yes, that person is lost.  Will the weight loss solve all of my woes?   Absolutely not.  I dont' expect the weight loss to do that.....this time.   When I originally lost the weight, I expected life to be peachy, rosy and just grand.  After all, it was my weight that was holding me back in EVERYTHING.  And yes, my weight was holding me back a lot.....but there were bigger issues that I have had to face.  I'm facing them.  I don't know how they will be resolved...but I'm trying to face them because I know that once again being thin will NOT take them away.  Lesson learned.


bbubblyb said...

Yep, we all need our anchors. For me, I've found that just trying to be happy doing my day to day stuff is what helps me the most.

timothy said...

i know kinda ironic isn't it, we're tryin to lose "ballast" but still need anchors! gotta love the absurdity. lol and i agree 100% i know in my head i'm not that 300+ pound man but i still "feel" like i am sometimes. the addiction will always be there but hopefully my knowledge/will will hold me in good stead.

Karen@WaistingTime said...

I think it is great that you have discovered these things about yourself. I suspect that I will always have to find some way to keep on track myself since food is clearly a big issue for me.

Anita said...

Thanks for the nudge.
I started today--Easter Sunday--to keep a food journal (also write down when/if I take my meds).
there's an awful picture of me on my blog, which I'm calling my Before picture.
We all know what we need to do. Why don't we just do it?
and I like what bbubblyb commented: "just trying to be happy"....being overweight and feeling stuffed does *not* make me happy.
Hmmm. Food for thought.