My focus is there. I spent the weekend reading some great blogs. I read successes and I read failures followed by success. I knew what I need to do and reading other people's experiences encouraged me to believe that once again I could do this. It made me remember that I HAVE done this and just need to do it again. It also probably helped that for breakfast I had some leftover pizza and a piece of leftover raspberry cobbler. I felt miserable, bloated and stuffed afterward. I vowed to eat a banana...and something light for lunch. But 2PM rolled around and I found myself eating.....you guessed it more leftover pizza and another piece of raspberry cobbler. So then I was miserable all afternoon. Todd came home and we had dinner at 8:30. I made chili...with beef. So I wasn't tempted to eat any chili (no beef for me please.....in fact the smell of the cooking meat was icky). I did have a piece of my homemade cornbread. I also made myself a sandwich with the last of the egg salad that I had made the day previously. I ate half the sandwich and while I wanted to eat it all (it was yummy)....I threw it away and stopped. Regardless, the bloated overstuffed feeling was still prevalent from my breakfast and lunch. Lesson learned. My body was SCREAMING at me and I didn't listen at first.....but I did finally get the message.
So today I'm focused. My food from breakfast has been entered into myfitnesspal.com. (yes, I am a weight watchers fan...and love the program, but money is really tight right now and I can't afford the meetings......I am a lifetime member, so when i get back to my goal weight, I'll be returning to the meetings to help keep me focused) The food that has gone into my lunch box for consumption here at work has been entered into myfitnesspal. I have a nice amount of calories left for dinner. I have my clothes packed for my zumba class that I go to every Monday. (or that I try to go to every Monday). I'm a little nervous about it....not sure if my left knee can stand it...but I'm gonna try it.
This morning I had Todd look at my knee. I had him see if he could feel a knot or anything in the muscle that runs from my calf, over the back of my knee (out back edge) and up into my thigh. The pain when I move is localized in the knee region. But when he was pressing on the muscle, it hurt when he touched the muscle up my thigh too. Crazy. Not sure what is up with this. GRRRRR (ohhh and I took the last week and a half off....no exercise....if anything, the pain got worse.)