Yesterday I had an epiphany. It's not willpower so much as just total focus and planning. If I'm prepared focused and ready I can plan and think about eventualities. This happened last night and it felt good to not just go crazy. I left zumba and I was HUNGRY. I had to swing by a grocery store. The last half of Zumba I DREAMED about just picking up a deli sandwich and chowing down on it during the drive home. I got to the store and I looked at the pre-packaged deli sandwiches. 500 calories for one sandwich. (ok 490 but I thought it would be easier to round up...my bad) I had the calories in my budget for that sandwich (even without touching my zumba earned calories) but I knew that the sandwich would not be enough. I thought about adding a prepackaged salad for 170 calories (so tempted to round up to 200...lol) but then I was like, NO, I have food at home. I walked away. But I knew that the process of making my planned dinner (grilled cheese and tomato soup) would be problematic because I was so hungry, it would be so tempting to eat a piece of buttered bread, extra cheese, a nibble of that raspberry cobbler. In fact, it would be tempting to just eat the rest of the cobbler (about 3-4 servings) in lieu of dinner (OK who am I fooling.....WITH dinner). So knowing that I was about out of Sargento Colby Jack cheese sticks, I purchased another pack at the store. I got in the car and had one on way home. It curbed the hunger and allowed me to effectively make dinner without gnawing the cabinet doors off the wall! I actually had planned in my calories yesterday to allow for a piece of cobbler. I was full after dinner and didn't bother with it! THAT is just me listening to my body.
My knee made it through zumba. It was stiff and sore and some songs about brought me to my knees with pain. But I made it through and honestly, at the end it felt more limber and loose and better. So I am thinking it is a seized muscle (happened to a muscle in my back a few years ago). I went home and put the heating pad on it trying to keep it limber (if possible).
I have a great friend. I met her during weight watchers meetings a few years back.She was there when I reached goal and when I made lifetime. She's been there encouraging me to not give up as I've regained....she's been a motivator for me to