As I'm embarking on this journey for the second time in my life. I sit back and look at my first attempt at losing weight. It was highly successful. I managed to knock about 130-135 pounds off of my body. I was able to see myself at a thinner weight. I was able to experience the joys of being thin. I bought really cool clothes. (that's what's it's all about isn't it?) I stayed near my lowest weight for quite some time. But ultimately, I wasn't able to maintain. Why? I have tons of excuses. I lost the support of my weight watchers meetings and the friends I had made at the meeting literally the same night I made goal. (they closed down my meeting and not other meeting would work well enough with my schedule for me to attend regularly...well one did...but after I started attending that one, they cancelled that meeting and combined it with another......I must be the kiss of death for weight watchers meetings!) Vacation occurred...and well that is kinda self explanatory. But you know what, I need to look at this realistically. I can make excuse after excuse about why I failed. But I need to delve deep and find the real culprit so that I can keep it from happening again. So after looking deep, what did I find? While losing the weight the first time around I was absolutely fanatical about my weight loss. I said no to cake. I said no to cookies. I ignored fattening foods like they were the plague. This is good because honestly, does anyone really need to eat those empty calorie fattening foods all the time? No, we do not. However, I forgot that this was life. Serious deprivation. I was single mindedly focused on losing weight so I didn't eat cake. My treat if I had a few calories left over at night was to drink a small glass of fruit juice.....or to drink a diet soda. Yeah, really. So when I reached goal at weight watchers, I let out a sigh of relief and when we left for vacation shortly thereafter I cut loose. I said to myself, "Well I'm at goal so I dont' have to worry about losing this week." So when the waiter would ask if I wanted dessert I would promptly answer, "Why yes!" It started me on a bad habit....without the support of the meeting I struggled to get my focus back. I slipped NOT because of vacation. I slipped NOT because of the cancelled weight watcher meeting. I slipped because I had not learned how to PROPERLY have my cake and eat it to!