Thursday, January 10, 2013

Paradox

I have said it more than once in the past years.  I have control over one thing in my life...and that is my weight.   If I've said it once, I've said it twice.  I have control over only  me.  Life swirls around me and threatens to tear me to pieces but there is ONE thing that I have ultimate control over and that is my eating, exercise and ultimately my weight!   2013 is the year that I am taking control of that aspect of my life.  I am taking no prisoners.  I am not looking back.  I am doing what I need to do and I am not wavering.  Yesterday I ate exactly what I had planned and thus stayed within my budget. I hit up zumba even though I wanted to sit in a corner and cry my eyes out.   At the end of the day I actually had enough calories for  nice evening snack. (not even including my calories burned during exercise...I had enough BEFORE exercise).   I however did not want it.  Yes, I actually typed that!   I didn't want my planned snack.  I didn't NEED it.  I therefore was 150 calories UNDER budget.  I'm not worried. If I were eating under 1200 calories on a daily basis it would be a real problem.  But dipping below once or twice here and there is not an issue.  (More on that later.)  I am at the top of my game thus far in 2013.....weight wise.


2013 has NOT started out in a stellar fashion.  We've had death.  We've had issues with our business.  And yesterday we actually had a car that heard it's death toll.  We are now officially a one car family for the unforeseeable future.  All of this is demoralizing and rather upsetting.  I'm floored with stress..words can't describe.  HOWEVER, I have NOT given up. I'm rolling along with my weight loss.  I'm not letting these outside factors affect my efforts.  I'm not letting my addiction win.  Ohhh it may win some battles, but I WILL win the war!


What a paradox....2013 on one hand is absolutely horrible but on the other hand it's fabulous!   (it's like I have a split personality or something.  haa haa haa)

I have tried to forge my own path on this weight loss thing.  I lost it all the first time through weight watchers.  I will forever be grateful to weight watchers for getting me past the hump and actually walking me through the journey the first time.  The program, leaders and yes fellow attendees (Hi Sherry!!!) helped me believe in myself to get me to goal.    I have learned lots of tricks and have read about a lot of rules out there.  I take the best of the best I throw out what doesn't make sense to me and I have tried to forge a path that works for me.  However, there is ONE rule that I adhere to without fail.  That rule?   Other than occasional and rare situations, I do not go below that 1200 calorie mark.  Yes, It has been a proven thing that a person should NOT eat less than 1200 calories a day.   Preferably GOOD nutritious calories. Our bodies need a certain amount of calories to exist in a healthy manner.  It is pretty much accepted that 1200 is the low for women.  When a person dips below that number our bodies tend to think they are starving and instead of helping out bodies, our bodies actually go into a starvation mode.  Starvation mode is bad because our bodies store the fat and slows down metabolism.  Storing fat is BAD. (obviously).Slowing the metabolism is bad too! So that is one 'rule' that I do follow almost religiously!   :-)

Rock on and for God's sake....THINK THIN!!!




6 comments:

B.H said...

Keep rocking! Things always seem to get worse before they get better. I think Dolly Partton said it best when she said "you cant have a rainbow without the rain". For whatever the tough stuff is for God only knows, but just keep fighting it will get better, it always does.

Scribbles said...

I get so much from a post that has determination etched in every line. It spurs me on to be more determined. If someone else can do it so can I. Especially when there are other things going on that could tip the scales and make a person want to eat. Must remember:"think thin"!!

spunkysuzi said...

This year will get better!!

Gwen said...

I'm so sorry that the year has started out for you, well, SHITTY. Hopefully things straighten out a little bit for you soon. Good for you, for hanging tough though!

and I totally agree about 1200 calories.

Anonymous said...

Hi MaryFran!!
Thinking Thin!!
Sherry

Fran said...

I'm with you on working on a healthy weight this year. I have the same thing about that: I can control it but I don't (till now)

I just read a post by someone that had 500 calories and was proud of it because it was a fast day. I actually wrote the same to her than you did in your last sentences.

About my name: my real name is Franciska which is difficult to pronounce for some languages and because some of my friends call me Fran I'm using it in the blogging community too.