Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Old Habits Die Hard

My world has fallen apart things with my husband went from bad to worse.  There is a silver lining in that, because sometimes you have to reach rock bottom before you can move on.  So we reached rock bottom.  The bad part?  You don't reach rock bottom and immediately have things resolve.  Rock bottom means that there is a new start. Where the new path leads, I don't know yet...but at least I'm on a path.    Simultaneously with that I had a handful of friends stab me in the back (metaphorically).   I was not exercising with my previous intensity due to this foot problem.  I was reeling from everything and it set me up for some bad bad things.

 I  reverted back to long known habits.  Comforting habits.  Friendly habits.  Yes, I eat.  I don't say no when a piece of cake is offered.  I don't say no when I'm asked to bake cookies.  I don't restrict myself while baking those said cookies.  No is not a word that is in my vocabulary when it comes to food.  I haven't gone totally off the cuff, but lets be honest, it's not good.  

When one thing falls away I seem to lose it in all aspects.  What does that mean?  It means that I've been sporadic at best with my exercise.  Once again...not good.

So the old habits have reared their ugly head and I succumbed to the pressure.   Since the beginning of July when all of this started (that is when I slowed down my exercise due to my foot). I have pretty much not lost any weight.  I have wasted two almost two months!   That makes me angry!

So baby steps.  I'm going to focus.  I can do this.  I know how to do it.  I want to do it.  I want to be in control of my life and I WILL be!

Today.....my focus is getting my water!   Like I said, baby steps.  I need to drink my water.   Yes, I'm going to try to keep my calorie intake under control.  But the ONLY thing I'm worried about is water.  Ohhh and I already ran today!!!!!!!




8 comments:

JenB said...

Sorry to hear things are rough. When I hit a rough spot several years ago and my world crashed, I dropped 20 pounds from the stress (and not eating). It was actually a life-changer (life-saver) for me. That had never happened before, or since. Sometimes that once easy weight loss can be a curse now because I want it to be fast and easy again. But for whatever the reason, I did need it then, and I know I can work it out this time on my own. You can too!

*A Strong New Me* said...

It is very hard to focus on workouts and eating healthy when there is turmoil and stress in your life. Try to see it as taking care of yourself, which you very much need right now.

Shelley said...

Good thoughts are headed your way, MaryFran - stay strong for YOU.

Melinda Ott said...

I'm so sorry to hear that things have hit rock bottom. But, you're right, it may take a while but it WILL get better. And good for you on focusing on your well-being during this time!

Marion Shaw said...

Shelley could not have said it better--Stay strong for YOU.

timothy said...

sometimes we have to get gobsmacked in order to focus, so while i'm sorry that you're goin through a rough patch it's the rough patches that show how strong you truly are. sendin you love and encouragement too but it's too love time so JUST DO IT!

Debsdailylife said...

Fran, I have been gone for almost three weeks. Life was so busy, Im back and getting caught up. Sorry life is sucking right now!!
One step at a time!!!

Darcy said...

Hugs, my friend. Lots of them. I'm around if you need me.