This morning I had a grand epiphany. When the news article was in the paper I had made a comment that "with everyone watching, I would be super motivated becasue I didn't want everyone to see me fail". But I think it's had the opposite affect. Everyone has read about my worst so why bother??? Or another way to put it would be to just 'get it over with....fail at this losing weight thing and accept the embarrassment'. Isn't that horrible??? But it's the truth. And that kind of thinking is sabataging my weight loss efforts.
Today Todd and I spent some time going through some stuff in storage. I found two bins of clothes that I had carefully stored. I pulled out the first pair of jeans and Todd, who was looking over my shoulder made a comment. "What elephant wore those?" HE was thinking that they were an old pair of his jeans and was trying to be amusing. I looked at the tag inside and had to honestly answer, "ME". Yes, they were my pants. I dug further into the box and I was pleasantly surprised. The clothes had been all carefully stored away as I gained weight. Ironically enough, I found clothes that I can currently wear...how cool is that? There were way outdated clothes (can we say "hello 80's") and there were clothes that had to be thrown away and or donated. There were clothes that I wouldn't wear again just because my styles have changed. Basically this box was a bin of clothes I outgrew or couldn't bear to get rid of. Below is a picture of me holding a pink shirt that I absolutely loved. (Todd commented, "you used to wear that all the time.) I could almost fit two of me in that shirt!!!
All in all the bins were a good find. I got some 'new/old' clothes to wear. (and yes, some favorites have made their way into my washing machine) but more importantly, I had a reminder of exactly how far I've come. Yes, I've still got a ways to go, but I've come a LONG LONG WAY!!!!