Yesterday I got home. My food was planned out and I knew what I was doing. I made my dinner which was grilled cheese and tomato soup. I didn't have the calories planned in for crackers in my soup...and I've eaten it without crackers so it didn't bother me. However, I sat down at the table and I couldn't stop myself. I WANTED crackers in my soup. I ate them....not just one or two...I ate probably 20-25 crackers. (yeah, I like a LOT of crackers in my tomato soup...I eat the crackers out and then put more in......sad isn't it?) I then made a fruit dip and prepped some fruit and even though I was full and kicking myself for my cracker debacle I ate about 2tbs of the dip and a few strawberries. And yes...that was my binge/splurge....crackers, fruit dip and fruit. I knocked about 200 extra calories for my day. I was beating myself up over this and immediately sent an email to my friend Sherry (I had to email her a link anyway...and check up on her progress) who talked me down from the ledge and made me see that 1. I probably needed those extra calories (I had exercised so I was still under my calorie goal for the day) and 2. Even if I didn't need them that my splurge was laughable in reality...looking at what my splurges USED to be. Thank you Sherry!!!! In talking to her we discussed her day and her urges and desires too. We both talked about how this is a journey that we are on..but it is also a thing of us learning how to deal with life pressures and the normal ebb and flow of our cycles (which DOES affect our hunger)...just life. This journey is NOT a race to the finish line...this journey is about learning how to eat and be healthy within the restrictions of life!
Today is a potluck at work...it's a birthday celebration. We are celebrating my managers birthday...my manager is also working on her weight. SO I was able to steer everyone to bring to more healthy flair. One gal is bringing some Asian Turkey Lettuce wraps. (it is a recipe from the cooking light magazine...she's brought them before....one is roughly 140 calories). I have one girl bringing a veggie tray. I'm bringing fruit tray (thus the fruit dip and fruit). I don't know what the other gal is bringing...she's one that is actually trying to GAIN weight...so who knows. I've got this potluck by the horns and I'm going to ROCK my eating today! Why yes, that is grapes, apples, pineapple and strawberries with the fruit dip in the center. The fruit dip is only 18 calories per tbs. LOVE it!
Took a sneak peak on the scales this morning...I'm down but not as much as I thought...but no worries...I've got until Monday before my official weigh in! Plus, I woke up incredibly thirsty...and that usually doesn't mean good things on the scales for me. Water.....soooo important to our existence!!!!!
I have to say that I'm very happy that today is my rest day. I need the rest....we all do in our journeys. I was thinking about my week of exercise and thinking..wow..I did so much. Then it hit me....I always do 3-4 zumba sessions...and have been for three years. I've been consistently doing the running thing for the last four weeks too. I only added in two 30 minute sessions on the elliptical. Crazy. Am I nuts???? And even though I'm glad for the rest day....part of me is itching to do something...anything!!!!!! Nope...nothing taxing for me today! :-)
I'll leave with a photo of the prettiest cat. Lucy is getting old. Makes me sad to think about losing my cat. She is 16 and is suffering from arthritis. But I LOVE her attitude. She is too proud to let it stop her. She refuses to use the steps I put for her to get onto bed. The sad part..she jumps down and you can her her thump when she hits...she used to be graceful and light as a feather. BUT her attitude is great. She enjoys being the matriarch of the cats and takes her duties seriously!