Sunday, September 28, 2014

Absentism

Why yes, I know I've been MIA.   It's a multitude of reasons.  I can wax poetic about how I photographed a wedding last weekend and then spent the multitude of hours editing them.   Yes, I could say that and it would be absolutely true. 


However, using that as an excuse would be a total stretch of the truth.  The reason I've been absent is the fact that I've just been struggling.   I am torn many times about saying too much on in my posts because I don't like to air my dirty laundry.  The flip side is that I have always operated my blog with total honesty.  So I'll just say it.....I'm struggling.  Big time.

How can I sum it up????    I just think that there has to be more to life than this.  I have moments of joy, peace and happiness.  But the rest of life is just hard.  So many aspects of my life is just wrong that I feel as if I am drowning.  I've written my blog posts about my plans.  And I still am working in that direction (ok, I've been bad and I haven't been utterly disciplined with my writing as I should be.) I just live for the good moments and try to push through the rest of the time.

I saw this sign last night and LOVED it!
My running.....Last week I only ran once!  It was a 4 miler and I should have done TWO of them last week but life happened and the run didn't.  I had a 6 miler on the schedule for this weekend.  That didn't happen either.   Shoes that I LOVE and that I've worn a gazillion times before (ok, maybe not a gazillion) have all of a sudden started to give me blisters.  Friday night my feet were BURNING.  I'm in that stage where the blisters WANT to happen but they are on the cusp.  SO my feet HURT.  I chose to save myself from blisters and not run (any shoes HURT) to heal so that my feet are in good shape for next week.  Yes my 10K is next Sunday.   I am going to try to do the scheduled 2-3 milers this week!  All depends on he blister-age.


Even with the foot problems I did get in a walk with my friend on the battlefield. :-)  Always good o walk and talk.  Wish I would have had a good camera.....it was PERFECT for photographs!!! Oh well, I grabbed one with my cellphone as we walked.  (nope, I didn't break stride)

10 comments:

timothy said...

hang in there darling, I'm kinda in the blah/meh stage myself but I'm gonna fake it til I make it!

Raine said...

We all struggle sometimes its best if we step back, take a moment to breathe. Best of all forgive yourself you're only human. You'll make it!

Kyra said...

I'm sorry you're struggling. I completely understand, though. I think most of us do. *hugs*

Suzanne said...

Love the sign! HA I totally feel like registering for the zero mile fun run. I have only managed 2 miles or else my knee starts to bother me. I think you will be ok with your race this weekend despite missing your long run. Keep your head up ~ you can do it !

Fran said...

Sweety you are sometimes so hard on yourself. Give yourself a break and you will be stronger after that. So you ran just once, but you did ran! You could have skipped that one too. Look at the positive instead of the negative.

You will get there someday.

Jean said...

It happens...don't be too hard on yourself. This past week doesn't erase the weeks prior!

Darcy Winters said...

Oh-oh, looks like you've fallen into one of my moods. Wish I had some grand advice for you, but all I can say is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and you'll get there!

Tricia Coniglio said...

I agree with Raine. Sometimes it is a good idea to take a break when struggling. Your readers will still be here cheering you on!

A Strong New Me said...

I feel the exact same way: there is just too much struggling going on in my life to focus on losing weight, but I feel like I have to, because that makes me unhappy too. I don't have a solution, just wanted you to know that I think I understand, and you are not alone.

Sonya @ Eyes on the Hourglass said...

Sorry to hear you are struggling. I've been there so many times before. The fact that you got one run in, is something though! Try to focus on the things you still are doing and not so much on what you aren't. Then build from there. This journey is full of ups and downs, and it sure can suck sometimes. Don't beat yourself up too much, you can do it. Hang in there.