Lets start with eating. No, lets save that for later or rather maybe intersperse it through my post.
Today I only worked until noon. Todd and I had dental appointments today at 1. So I got off work, hit home at about 12:15 and headed directly to the dentists office. Have I mentioned that the dentists office isn't my favorite place. Ok, it's not that bad. My dentist office is pretty darn good and the employees are great. I end up gagging during the x-rays. Go figure. Who knows. I think I just over think it. I'm not sure, because I wouldn't say that I have this over active gag reflex. That is the major dread about the appointment. So once that was over I settled into the chair and relaxed. I'm happy to say that the dentist, amidst his jokes and laughter reassured me that my teeth were indeed still securely attached to my head and that they were not in danger of falling out. Ha ha ha. Ok, he actually told me that my teeth were looking good and that I was cavity free.
We were hungry when we left the dentist, so we hit up our post dentist restaurant. Yeah, I know...clean teeth, what a shame to dirty them up. But hey, we hadn't eaten lunch yet so why not! We usually eat at The Green Turtle twice a year......why yes we get our teeth cleaned twice a year. We splurged and got some wings. We haven't had their wings, so we ended up not getting the hottest ones because wings are so subjective. one persons hot is another persons weak. Yeah, we could have pumped it up to the highest level. Live and learn. I also got the Raspberry Turkey Flatbread sandwich. Pretty good. Not as good as they used to be...don't know what they changed, but they changed something.
After lunch we ran some errands. A few things for the pond project (never ending....or so it seems), cat food and some things at Sam's club. We stopped for gas on the way home and then the fun started here. Laundry and some light cleaning and light house chores. Weee
I decided to not go to zumba tonight. On Sunday I had been moving stones for the pond project and tweaked my back. GRRRRRRR Yes this back issue is not new. I've had this problem more than once before. so I'm just taking it easy. Exercise has GOT to get back on track.....but right now I have to make sure that I'm healthy!!!!!
I had picked up a take and bake pizza from Sam's club, so dinner was an easy fix. Now I'm thinking of hitting up the hot tub and then coming in to just relax the rest of the night.
So my eating. Not of the rails...simple/normal meals. But not exactly full of healthy items. I'm going to consider that a victory. I've not snacked between meals in a few days. That is a major accomplishment! That's the first step!
So the headache thing? I've been pounding the water and the headache does seem to have eased up. So I'm hoping that's it.
So how does one go about finding the direction in life. I am doing things I enjoy but I can't help but wonder what I should be doing. I can't help but wonder that I'm focusing on things that will only waste my time. I know that something in my life needs to change. My job is a job...and for that I'm thankful. But my pay is barely minimal and my job bores me to death. So minimal that if I didn't have a husband and his income, I wouldn't be able to afford to live...and we have no mortgage or rent.......and I still couldn't live on what I make. I find this unacceptable. This is NOT what I envisioned for myself years ago when I was in college.
I have some ideas for my future, but I wonder if they are a long shot. Is it worth my time? But i'm going to stop myself and say that it's my fears of failure that keep me from it! So onward I work.
So on the same note, the other day I met a lady that has her own business doing craft things. I was at her booth and saw her variety and I told her that I sensed a kindred spirit. She seemed to dabble in a lot of different crafts. I told her that and she promptly looked at me and matter of factly asked me where my booth was. She flat out told me that she had worked in a bank (ha) and was miserable and bored and decided to branch out and do what she wanted and she was living her dream and making it work. (I suspect hefty alimony and/or child support from her ex husband since she mentioned a divorce and a passel of children). It made me think. Should I be pursuing the things that I enjoy doing? Should I be putting my time into some of these crafts that I like? Food for thought.