Sunday, June 14, 2015

Come back!!!

On Friday afternoon I went out to lunch.   We have fallen into the routine of appetizers (pretzel sticks on Friday) and I got a buffalo chicken sandwich and fries.  I was so full that come dinner I was still stuffed to the point of being sick.   Really?   Why do I do it to myself.    I thought about it long and hard and decided that I need to stop ordering my food out of long ago habits.  I need to make new habits and return to my weight loss lifestyle habits!

You see, what I ordered is what the old maryfran would have ordered.   The 300 plus pound MaryFran would have ordered that (ok at least I didn't order dessert too!!).  My life is in an upheaval and I have just automatically slipped back into the habits, roles and routine that last felt comfortable.   Where did the 'no thank you, I don't want fries' girl go?   Where did the 'no appetizer today but thank you all the same' girl on a mission disappear to?  We can call her Elvis, because she definitely left the building!!!!     As I lay in bed thinking about it I knew that I was totally satisfied when I was eating the meals without fries....and the meals without appetizers.   100% satisfied and I felt great...none of this stuffed so full that I'm afraid a cat will scratch me and set free an explosion of pent up food.  The path I'm on is not a good one!!

So I am proud to say that when I went out to eat with a good friend of mine on Saturday at lunch that I ordered a salad.   Ok, so it had crispy deep fried chicken in it....it was still a salad.  (Was a time that I would have not ordered the crispy chicken and instead gotten grilled chicken or no chicken at all!)   I also was so happy to see my friend that I ate slow and ended up not licking my plate clean. (I actually left food...unheard of lately!)  And I felt fabulous after eating...none of the stuffed feeling for me on Saturday!!!

Sunday morning...another run.  Still happy with my decision to bump up one more week in the couch to 5k training.  It is hard but I can do it...a challenge is good!!!


And on the note of running....why is it that I feel I must take a picture of myself while running...or rather at the end of my run???  It's almost like in my mind the run is not complete without the obligatory selfie!   Yeah, I'm bonkers!!

While talking to my friend on Saturday I realized (with his kind words of encouragement) that I NEED to figure out the food thing.   I get home much later...most days after my parents have eaten.  I don't want to cook anything major for myself.  Thus I default to a pb&j or make a box of macaroni and cheese for myself. (I can say that most of the time at least the box of Mac-n-cheese works as two meals!).  Not horrible choices but not awesome. (Ok they are horrible..the Mac-n-cheese at least)   So I tend to end up grabbing food on the way home...more horrible choices!   Both weight wise and financially speaking.    I've gotta figure this out!!!!  



6 comments:

Jean said...

You are clearly motivated...no problems there! I always hesitate to offer advice to people on this journey because, you know, there's so many ways of doing things and I don't want to claim to have all the answers. But one thing that helped me hugely was planning ahead – creating menus for the week, in fact. I know this is a pain, and I don't always do the entire week – sometimes I just do a few days; sometimes even just one day. But since I'm a calorie-counter it helps. I create a food plan and then try to stick to that. Life happens, of course, so sometimes I have to make adjustments, but it still helps the mindset when I create a predetermined menu.

If you're going out to eat, that's OK. You have to socialize and all. When I know I'm going out to eat I try to "case" the restaurant ahead of time, look up the menu online and figure out what I'm going to have. That also helps with planning the rest of the day around it.

Hope this helps!

MyStalkerIsFat said...

Great job on the run and on the salad! Nothing wrong with chicken on it. Protein, right? A salad with nothing on it isn't terribly filling.

I just got back to running, and I'd be afraid to take a picture when I'm done! People might think I am dying :) Maybe when I get better at it, I will take those obligatory selfies too, ha ha.

Darcy Winters said...

Way to go on the running! Have you thought anymore about Weight Watchers? You might like their Simply Filling plan. I like the concept, but for right now, I appear to need to be tracking the points.

Rachel Block Smith said...

Great job on the run! As for food, work on finding quick, easy to prepare healthier options than mac and cheese and PB and J.

I also feel like I need to take a selfie when I'm out walking - don't know why that is!

Gwen said...

I'd suggest buying healthy food over the weekend, and take an hour or so on Sunday to prep it and put it in containers. Then, it's super easy during the work week. :)

p.s. for produce, always put a paper towel in the container. It lasts MUCH longer. :)

Alissa A Journey to Thin said...

You sound just like me. I used to make much better choices when dining out too! I think I need to start working my "just say no" muscle so that it's much stronger again!