Monday, October 05, 2015

OH MY!

Cakes and cookies and Pies, Oh My!   Ok ok ok, I haven't had pie...probably only because I'm not a big pan of pies.  Oh, who am I kidding, I haven't had pies because there haven't been any readily available.    

So those first few lines are rather telling.  I fessed up and said I hadn't had pie....which means that I did have cake and cookies.  Yup.  I can't lie.  And if you combine that with my most recent blog post....you know, the one where I said that I was going to get serious again (I believe I said right after I wipe the grease from my Burger King breakfast from my lips) about weight loss; well then you know that it didn't exactly happen.  Well, I did wipe the grease from my lips, I just didn't get back on track.  Oops

I knew the 'restart was looming'.  I knew it all weekend.  Yesterday I just ate with abandon, telling myself the whole time.  "This is the last hurrah'.    What a pitiful attitude.  It was so pitiful that I had cheese and crackers for lunch (a lot of cheese...and a fair amount of crackers), some bread and butter and jelly, some oreos, and why yes, some apple cake (which was delicious by the way).   For dinner I did Subway...I got full fatted chips Doritos actually, I was thinking the whole time, "it's my last chance before I straighten up my act, better enjoy it!"  I actually ordered the cookies to round out my meal.   Later in the evening I went ahead and had some ice cream.  Yup, I did it up good.

But I had vowed that Monday was the day.  So I got on the scales, with fear and trepidation. But I needed to know my 'starting' figure.   What's the use of trying if I don't have a benchmark to show how far I've come.  So I did it!   It wasn't as bad as I thought.  I am NOT back into that 5 pound vortex that I was stuck in for a while.  I am not even on the edge of that vortex...so I am happy.  :-)  

Seriously contemplating rejoining weight watchers.  They are offering the 'lose 10 pounds in 2 months' and get your money back" deal.  Tempting.  Haven't decided yet!

Here is to plowing through this excess weight once and for all!


6 comments:

Darcy Winters said...

I have come to the conclusion (for me) that it is unreasonable to think that one will never have cookies or cake (or pie) again. I like that WW lets you have all things...in moderation. I think with the kind of training you are doing - the plan would work well for you because the activity points you earn will allow you to have a few "forbidden" items with no guilt. All of this being said, of course, by someone who is NOT on track with her WW program! :-O

Jean said...

Could job about not gaining! You can do this...hang in there!

Shelley said...

I am with Darcy on this one - if you get in that all or nothing mindset, I think you set yourself up for instant failure once you have a cookie or full-fat Dorito, and that's a slippery slope from there.

finding lori said...

I do that "last hurrah" eating when I'm "starting over", because I tend to think I can't have this again, but yeah, like the ladies stated above, you can have it again, just in moderation and under a controlled supervised swat team :) I've said before that I am an all or nothing kind a girl and that is my BIGGEST downfall! :) Great job with the weigh in!!

Kerstin said...

At least you don’t give up! I cannot even begin to count the number of last suppers I’ve had! And the number of times I’ve failed to get back on track afterwards. But things do feel differently this time round. I am not viewing my ‘program’ as something I can fall off from and need to restart. If I have a strong craving for something ‘bad’ I have it. I just make sure that I keep it within my calorie limit and occasionally I use my exercise calories. I am working hard to get away from the all-or-nothing mindset because it’s never helped me lose weight. I have never done WW but know tons of people who are successful on it. Hang in there :) xo

Lori said...

I cannot even begin to count the number of times I've done the same thing. I am proud of you for drawing the line where you did, and getting back with it.
Lori