I got a run in on Tuesday morning at 5:15 in the morning (yes in the morning...kinda shocked me too!!). My foot was bothering me this last weekend so unwanted to take it slow and easy. I only ran about 2.5 miles. Jason went running also on Tuesday (6 miles for him) so almost immediately I found myself 3.66 miles behind!!! Grrrrr.
Not a problem....I would just run another 5:15 run on Wednesday morning to catch up! Wednesday morning was wiped out because my stomach was feeling icky. (Ok and maybe also because I had stayed up watching a movie until midnight Tuesday night!.).
Not a problem....I would run Wednesday night.....except I didn't get home until 8:20 and I was hungry! Yes I could have run hungry and reheated my pizza up as a delicious post run meal but seriously that pizza smelled so deliciously garlicky, running stood no chance!!!
Thursday morning!!!! I would wake up early and knock out a super long run!!!! I didn't have to work until noon so it was perfect!! I woke up. I got dressed and I made it to the door. BOOM!!! Yeah I guess I forgot to check the weather! Rain is one thing.....lightening is another! By the time the rain was over I was in the throes of a cat emergency. (Ethel is ok....but I was busy with that until literally minutes before I left for work!)
It's supposed to rain and hail and tornado warnings for tonight...so running outside is looking spectacularly washed out. Arrrggghh!!! Must I go to the gym (that I pay for and rarely use) tonight to run on the treadmill to make up these miles???
The good thing is that Jason's plans to run have also been way-laid so he hasn't added more miles to totally blow me out of the water! However has told me that he is definitely running tomorrow! So I really do need to make up these 3.66 miles so that tomorrow I don't sink deeper into the loser abyss!
I hate the treadmill! But I hate losing! Even worse, I REALLY hate to lose by a landslide! Oh why is this decision to go to the gym so painful!!! (It would shock him to see the mileage pop up...which admittedly does make the gym idea a bit better!!)
And just in case you are wondering, it hasn't escaped me that my motivation is winning and not any overwhelming desire to run!!! (Actually I do want to run....just outside! Wow, don't I sound whiny?!). But do you know what? Whatever motivates us at any given moment is what matters. Next week I may run mad miles because I'm motivated by a PR at my next run. Maybe I'll run extra miles to counter act a piece of pizza. Or maybe I will run like the wind because I'm motivated to buy a new dress (I'm not a clothes horse so not likely!). It doesn't matter! It's motivation!
Motivation for me is like a rolling wave on the ocean.....ever changing shape and size. Some weeks the 'wave' is huge and carries me. Sometimes it's a flat surface and I sit still. It also changes appearances. Sometimes I am motivated by winning a competition, sometimes I am motivated by intrinsic desires to lose weight, sometimes I'm motivated by a record or a streak (i.e. I have been Tracking every day for the last two hundred some days days...I don't want to mess up the streak) a dress I want to fit into or a person in my life, or whatever! It's ever changing and evolving!! I have learned to roll with it!!
Right now, I just know I have to run like the wind TODAY or I may be irreversibly behind in the weekly mileage challenge! Time will tell if that is enough to motivate me enough to get to the gym!!!