Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Rattled

So January is on its way out......and it just so happened that this was my weigh in day so I have an official weigh in to report.

So here it is....I weigh 0.2 pounds MORE than I was at the beginning of the month.   I’m disallusioned beyond belief right now.  Near tears.  Frustrated. And angry.

I haven’t been perfect.  I know that.  And I’m not aiming for perfection!    But I have been so much more on point than I was in December and November.   

I have weighed every Wednesday for my ‘official’ weigh in and I’ve weighed every Saturday for my unofficial check in.   Wednesday’s I’ve been up....Saturday’s I’ve been down.  All within a 4 pound range.  


As you can see day one was high and the. The rest of the month I fluctuated between two pounds but still showing lower than January 1.  But today...boom...right back up there!  

I am running right at goal in terms of calories to lose 1 pound a week. (That goal is 1750...and my average was 1762).  

I will say that I had a bad feeling when I woke up that the scales were not going to be friendly.  Why?  I woke up thirsty.   That usually indicates that I am retaining water....dehydrated (I drank 4 or 5 bottles of water yesterday though!).  And the monthly ick has been part of my week...another whammy.   But seriously.....really????

Wow...excuses.....did I just negate those excuses as invalid and not acceptable?   That’s a first for me!!!  

So on to the midweek report.

I have restarted the stairs at work. 

My knee still is a bit sore but it’s capable of climbing!

Jason and I walked outside on Monday night. 

 But sadly there had been no bike trainer for me.  I have been utterly exhausted each night by the time I get home.  Jason mentioned my ‘spacey-ness’ on Monday night and my mom mentioned it on Tuesday night....so I know it’s not just me trying to find a reason.  I’m just plain exhausted.    Maybe I’m fighting off the germs that Jason probably shared with me last week when he was sick with a cold.  I have no symptoms (other than some sinus pressure) but maybe my body is just busy fighting it off.  Who knows.

I have been tracking everything!   As I mentioned I’m actually eating in amounts that should have me losing 1 pound a week.  And lots of fruits and veggies....not all junk!

I’m just ratttled because I’ve tried this month and I don’t have much to show for my effort....just some overly tight pants and some memories of carrots and grapes.  





7 comments:

Sarah said...

My month looks just like that chart! It's so frustrating when you know you've done so much better and the stats just don't show it.

Hang in there.

Shelley said...

Well, my solution would be to stop weighing on Wednesdays...

But seriously, that scale, ugh. It's a beast. Here's to more progress in February.

jesseybell said...

I am sorry the scale didn't reflect your effort. You still seem like you are stressed, so perhaps stress is holding the weight on?

Here is a to a great February! Winter is almost 1/2 way over!

jen said...


Hmmmmft drafted demon scales...
Maybe next weigh in will reflect more on your greater effort...hang in there

Vickie said...

I am curious where your macros are within total calories. Protein, fat, carbs.

I once read an article about the traits of people who can just watch total calories. These are generally people who just need to drop a few pounds. No obesity history. And then there is the rest of us, who have to look at the makeup of those calories. (And usually have insulin resistance.)

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#fatfreefloozy said...

Knowing that you were fluctuating and have TOM, I would keep doing what you are doing! You've got this!