Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Should I????

My weight is up. What more can I say?

I'm just having a really rough couple days. Something came up, a personal issue that will remain un-talked about in this blog/journal. But this issue just hit me super hard. I feel as if the rug has been yanked out from under me. I just want to curl up in a ball and let the world pass me by for a bit while I recover. Unfortunately, that isn't the way that life works. I forced myself to be super productive this morning. I did two huge loads of laundry and have them out of the line, I prepared banana slices for dehydrating (they are dehydrating as we speak), I made banana muffins (no fear, I put pecans in them....I don't like nuts so no temptation there). I made a full breakfast for my honey. We went for a walk. I cleaned and vacuumed the house. I also made it to work on time at noon. And here I sit. Work is VERY slow today....I'm trying to stay busy so that I do not dwell on this issue. That's easier said than done.

Meanwhile, I'm really debating....do I try another weight watcher meeting tonight? Is it even worth my time with the way that I'm feeling? After the fiasco of a meeting that I went to last week I'm actually sorta dreading going to another meeting. (nope, not going back to the one from last week). I know that I sooo need to go to a meeting. I need to find a meeting that I can call my own and feel a part of. I need to get myself back under control. But to go when I just feel like crying??????

5 comments:

spunkysuzi said...

"hugs"
I had the same problem with ww's i used to go to a meeting which i loved and i got to goal. Well you know the story a few years and pounds later i decided to go back only to absolutely feel like an imposter! So i never tried again, although lately i do have a few friends that go and i may just tag along with them one of these days to see how i like it. Good luck!! And i hope your problem resolves itself soon ;)

Donna B said...

So sorry you are going through all of this right now. If at all possible, try to find another meeting. You are so inspirational to me and I wish I could be there in person for you during this difficult time. Keep as busy as possible, even if you just take a walk. Try to let some of the "stuff" stay behind and enjoy the weather. Your are in my thoughts....tomorrow will be better.

Shosh said...

((((((MARYFRAN)))))) You need a hug. I am so sorry that you're going through whatever is ailing you. I hope that you are able to keep busy...

Go to a new meeting, you never know. Maybe you'll love the leader and the people will be a godo fit. You never know unless you go...it will help you feel better and more in control too.

XOXO

Deborah said...

Wish I could give you a hug right now. You sound like you really need it. I'm so sorry life isn't being kind to you.

If WW meetings help you stay on track then you should definitely try to find one that you like. But sometimes when we are having problems in our lives we just don't want to be around strangers and sometimes not even family or friends. So if you need to take a break this week to let thing settle down then that's just what you have to do.

Hang in there gal, the sun will shine in your life again soon.

JC said...

For what it is worth consider yourself virtually hugged. I hope can can find a WW meeting that is great and supportive. Whatever is going on know that I will be praying for you. Grace and blessings to you.