Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Fear

The weight is up this morning. Hello cookie dough!

I was in the shower this morning thinking about the plans that Todd and I have for the day. We will be on the go ALL day...meaning we will most likely eat two meals out. Part of me wants to just say screw it and eat what and where I WANT to eat. However, I know that I can't do that. I can't give up. Giving up is the easy and 'safe' route. In conjunction with what I wrote last night, giving up is safe. If I say I'm stopping now, there is no risk for failure. It's a difficult decision..because I greatly fear failure...the taste of it is still in my mouth. I don't want another dose.

3 comments:

Donnalouise, Donna or DC said...

Sending you positive vibes so you make the best eating out food decisions possible :)

Shosh said...

PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP. You are in a rut and that's OK you just have to be able to work through it. Eat what you want and move on to the next meal. You have come so far and you cannot just walk away from all of that.

We're here to support you and I know that you can do this!!

JC said...

NEVER GIVE UP!!! It is not an option. So there! However, eat what you want but just much less of it and eat it very slowly. Won't hurt to give it a try.

Every time I try on something smaller part of me is fearful I'll start going back up but this time I've come too far. You have been a part of my success because you inspire me. Hope you having a great day.