Thursday, August 13, 2009

disgust

I was thinking about this whole thing and I've realized that I'm just plain disgusted with myself. Disgusted that that I seemingly have no control over myself (as weird as that sounds). Disgusted at what i eat. Disgusted at what I weigh. Disgusted at how my clothes fit (or don't fit as the case may be).

Yes, it's my fault...but that doesn't stop the problem or take away the self disgust.

2 comments:

Katie J said...

I know exactly how you feel. You can take it two ways. You can use it to push you towards making changes or you can let it get to you and perpetuate the situation. You have proven you can do it so I hope you are able to push through this and move forward.

VRaz60 said...

I know just how you feel. We are both intelligent women who have made a decision to improve our health and lose weight. Why is it our resolve isn't as strong after a while? I waiver, but I always return to the program. I'm still trying to figure out in my head why it is that upon arriving at a new milestone weight (a lower one) I seem to then give myself permission to "cheat" those pounds back on again.

We CAN and WILL do this. I firmly believe that. It may take me us a little longer because of our "shortcuts", but we WILL do this. After all, we are already ahead of where we started.