Tuesday, August 18, 2009

options and feelings

So I was writing a response to a blog entry today and wrote that after a day of eating lots of good things that there are a myriad of feelings and emotions pouring through me. They include

1. Euphoria over the lingering memories of the delicious tasting food.
2. Physical illness from eating foods that my body is not accustomed to (or should I say in the quantity that my body is not accustomed to).
3. Mentally kicking myself for binging. Self disgust if you will.

Yeah, it's kinda confusing to have all of these emotions and feelings coursing through my body. But after I typed it and I'm sitting here at work, I realized that I need to make the choice. I can feel any or all of those emotions OR I can feel some other emotions and feelings......

4. Empowerment-received when I'm on top of my eating and beating my food addiction.
5. Physically strong-the food that my body is receiving gives me energy and a vivaciousness because it is what my body needs and in the quantity that my body needs.
6. Happiness and a growing respect for healthy foods. The more I eat them, the better some things taste.
7. A slight feeling of missing out from not eating the foods that I'm addicted to.

Soooo i have an option of 6 feelings. Some will go hand in hand. But my food choices will affect how I feel. Is that euphoric feeling really worth having the effects of numbers 2 and 3? On the flip side, are the wonderful feelings and emotions of numbers 4-6 enough to outweigh and overpower the negative of 7???

Sooo that is my deep thoughts for the day.


F. McButter Pants said...

Love your deep thoughts. I totally understand!

Thanks for the post!

Jennifer said...

You have given me things to think about. I had a "binge" day yesterday as well. Making the right food choices is always the best bet but sometimes it just isn't that easy!

Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

It's great to really think through things carefully. It's not easy to make choices we know are the best, but the more we make them, the better we get at it!

Sonya said...

You are not alone my dear, you are soooooo not alone. I have those thoughts all the time. I use to eat...and eat..and eat bad foods and even though it's wonderful at the time, I would feel very guilty afterwards. It's taken me lots of therapy to get over it. Now if I eat cake, I eat cake and move on.

Lately though, for the first time in a LONG TIME, I'm actually enjoying healthy healthier (although my portions I still have to work on), and you are right the body thanks you every time because you less tired, more awake and more energized. That has been my experience anyway. I'm just hoping I can remember these feelings the next time I get a craving for a big mac!

VRaz60 said...

I hear ya!!! Same thoughts, same emotions here, too.

Teresa said...

We all feel them, just getting our actions under control is the big thing.

Tiffany said...

Great post. Just found your blog via your comment on another blog and wanted to say you look great. What an inspiration.

Big Girl said...

Very thoughtful post. And you are so right, it is about choices. For some reason, my choices are not always the best for me. But I keep trying and trying.