Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The great mystery

Motivation. How can a person want something so much but just lack the motivation? I want to lose this weight so badly. Yet when it comes down to actually getting off my butt, I lack motivation. Back up...yet when it comes to making healthier choices I lack motivation. Oh heck, my motivation is simply in the toilet. Yet I want to lose soooo darn badly. It just makes no sense.

I went back to weight watcher meetings 4 weeks ago. Week one, I gained four-tenths of a pound. Week two, I gained 8 tenths of a pound. Week three I blew it all away and gained two pounds and two ounces! I'm paying stinkin' money to GAIN WEIGHT! Now...the first two weeks I was religious with my eating. I ate healthy. I restarted the exercise regime...and I went to a meeting and showed a gain....both weeks. Week three...well.....lets just say that I didn't go hog wild, but I didn't even track! It was a super stressful week! This week I'm doing a bit better. I'm not strictly regimented, but I am very cognizant of what I'm eating...and YES, I am tracking!

I have less than one month before Girls With Gears...in which I am registered to ride. I've been on my bike 2 times this year. The first time was hideously horrid. Notice it was hideously horrid...not just hideous and not just horrid! My second ride was much better...but I was on the canal and that is relatively flat....so it was an easier ride!

Stress levels are still super high. Something that a friend wrote today just hit me...and here it is: I think we all have issues we wrestle with. It's just whether or not we let those issues impact our diet and exercise.

8 comments:

Reese said...

I wish I had the answer as to how to stay motivated...it is a constant struggle for me. Coming to your blog and seeing your before and after photos have motivated me today! Cheers on your weight loss! :)

F. McButter Pants said...

UGH! I hate it when it's all up to me!

You can do this, don't give up.

The Pretty In Me said...

Thanks for your awesome encouragement....

I have to admit something. When I got to your page, all I saw was the top pic of you.

I thought, 'Oh. She's thin. She doesn't really understand how hard it is... hwo emotional it is.... how painful it is..."

And then I scrolled down and saw your Before pic...

And I almost started crying.

You are amazing. And I'm an idiot. :0)
Thanks for following me. I'm following you and your blog.

The Pretty In Me said...

And I agree with Reese... seeing your Before and After pic totally, TOTALLY motivated me, too. ... Praying for your motivation, girl!

Teresa said...

Maybe you just needed a break. Now get back up, dust yourself off, and get back on. You can do it, sit down and write out a schedule and just do it. A bit of tough love, hope it helps. :)

The Pretty In Me said...

i believe in you and when you post that new pic up, i'm gonna be cheering you on for stepping out in victory and acceptance ... you've not let go and you are right: we are going to do this. :0) yay for new friends!

Julie, The Accidental Fat Chick said...

This is me too. I want it so badly, yet I struggle to put in the work required to get there. I wrote on my blog today about my "consistent inconsistency."

You've come so far! You can do this!! :)

Lovebug6100 said...

I just got your comment on my page...how funny is it that we're reading each other's blogs at the same time....I have no motivation either. Would you like to be email buddies?