Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Last night I got home at around 7:30 and I hit the kitchen full steam ahead. I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.....then some homemade fat free chocolate ice cream......then some mini marshmallows......a handful of almonds......and I washed it all down with a dark chocolate candy bar. Can we say SUGAR? I felt physically ill afterwards. When I finally came to my sense (I claim temporary insanity) I just wanted to cry. WHY? Why did I do that. I didn't want that food. I didn't need that food. Pure outright disgust with myself....

To add to the disgust that I feel over my behavior and actions last night.....this morning I went to turn on my computer....problems. My new hard drive (I've only had this one a few months ago...I had run out of space on my other one) went kaput. And stupid me.......I haven't backed up anything since last November. I've just lost 6 months of my life. 6 months of pictures. Six months of writing. Six months of EVERYTHING ARRGGGHHH

This is not a good week...especially if you add in the other stressors that I'm dealing with.

I have pulled myself together.....I've got my healthy eating hat back on and i'm working on it. I've already ridden the exercise bike for an hour this morning...and I'm heading to Zumba after work....so 2 hours of exercise today. I'm trying.

5 comments:

bbubblyb said...

Hang in there we all have days/weeks like this. Good for you for just putting yourself back on track.

VRaz60 said...

You mean to tell me that there is a hat for healthy eating??? How much is it, and where can I get it????

Gosh, wouldn't it be nice if that was all it took? But it sounds like you are righting the ship, so keep at it. We can, and will, "Get 'er done".

LA said...

I'm with VRaz60 ... I'm needin' that hat TODAY! ;)

I'm proud of you for recognizing the bad eating and getting back on track. I know it's hard to lose things on your computer (man ... I never thought about just how much of my LIFE is on this thing!), but you are still here and that's what matters! :)

Julie, The Accidental Fat Chick said...

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Its great that you will get a couple hours of exercise today... that will at least help combat the food a little. :)

And where do I get one of those "healthy eating" hats? I need one badly!!!!

lindalou said...

It is such a STRUGGLE...isn't it??
But you are doing a lot RIGHT...
are strawberries around yet, where you live??? I just love em and can load up on eating them without guilt. Just love them plain...no short cake!!