Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Life Sucks

Life has been rough.

First lets talk about eating.  I had made a very concious decision to eat right.  To change and work on the only aspect of my life that I do have control of.  I started....and then as the stress mounted, food started to make me feel ill. I'm eating very minimally.....so that's actually not good. But at this time, eating alone is a chore.  Never thought I would say that.

The last week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me.  I've cryed at the drop of a hat. I've cried continally.  I want to cry now!   Part of the problems are personal in nature, so I won't share them.  But lets just say that I have come to the conclusion that some situations in my life have totally decimated my self confidence.  Words have damaged who I am.  Words have made me doubt the sincerity of so many things....when they pertain to me that is.   Above and beyond the self doubt and confidence issues...just life in general has gotten to me. 
My song....which I have listened to over and over.......is currently by Cher........it really speaks to me!  Check it out!!!

2 comments:

Shabby Chic Mom- Susie said...

Maryfran. Please don't feel like life sucks. We are alive and able to make some changes. Im sorry you're going thru some personal things but have faith. Things will get better. (((Hugs)))

bbubblyb said...

Hugs MaryFran, you deserve to feel good things about yourself. You have to keep reminding yourself that others actions and words are about their issues not yours. Stay strong. I'm here if you need me.