I'm seriously considering going back to weight watchers. The accountability is so vital for me. Last spring it didn't work. Last spring I don't think I was ready to say that I've hit bottom...AGAIN. I'm there. I need to make changes in my life. The money is the biggest factor. I don't want to spend it (and money is tight so $40 a month is a stretch....however, I'm already paying $13 for the etools....so it's actually only $27....ok, put that way.....) I've also realized that competition is not working for me. I've started competitions with people and I've bombed each and every one. Yes, I hate to lose....so when I mess up and start to lose, I give up. I'm not going to set up any dates of when I want to reach the goals. Oh wait, I'll say "ohhh I think and hope to be such and such by such and such' But I can't set any "I'll be 10 pounds down by the time we go on vacation" Once again, it's easier to give up and stop. It's this intense fear of failure.....so when I start to slip and slide backwards towards failure, I just give up so that I don't have to look at myself and say 'you failed, Maryfran....you failed again'.
I've eaten rather well this past week. My choices haven't been all that bad. I've eaten lots of fruits and veggies. BUT my weight is still up a bit from where it was on Monday. I know why though....because my portion control has been out of whack. So that's the next thing to tackle.