Tuesday, April 26, 2011

stranglehold, dread and other non-connected thoughts

Why does food have such a hold on me?   I start thinking about the next meal mere seconds after the latest meal is finished.  It's nuts.  I have off tomorrow afternoon and I've already talked to Todd about what/it/where/when we will go out to eat for lunch or dinner.  That's just sad.  Why does it have such a hold on me.  Food has a stranglehold on me.  It controls everything I do. I need to break that stranglehold.  How do break that hold is the question.  How do you break the patterns and thoughts that have defined who you are for so many years?   we live in a society that actually encourages that thought.  We are rewarded with food.  We are thanked with food.  We are consoled with food.  It's the way our society is.  So how can one break from this stranglehold????

I woke up with an incredible sense of dread this morning.  I have no clue what I'm expecting to happen or what is up.  Some people said "you are probably just dreading going to work because yesterday was so slow and boring"  but it's not that kinda dread.  That kinda dread is a annoying nuisance.  This is just all consuming ready to cry and waiting for the shoe to drop dread.  Not cool.   I'm just sufficiently worried because of this weird feeling.

Food yesterday.....OVER by about 8 points. It was the banana split flurry (blizzard...but not at dairy queen) that did it. I thought last week was bad because I was just kinda snacking all week.....this week may be worse because Todd is able to eat and WANTS to eat....and heck, I'm a social eater! I have my food entered into e-tools for today though. It's a bit high on carbs...but I'm within my points. (Todd wanted waffles for breakfast so I made homemade waffles....I am having a salad for lunch with grilled chicken on it....and dinner is spaghetti) notice the theme of foods for Todd has to be softer...nothing that is crunchy or has to be chewed a lot. LOL

5 comments:

Splurgie said...

I am also married to someone who eats whatever he wants and stays the same weight. He could stand to lose a few but doesn't gain. If I ate whatever I pleased, I wouldn't fit through the door. Not fair.

Karen@WaistingTime said...

I've often felt that food has a hold on me too:(

Debbie said...

My hubby can also pretty much eat what he wants although he could stand to lose about 20 lbs. I fully understand about going over on points. I have cut my points back myself. Thanks for your comments on my blog.

Tanya said...

I knoq hoq you feel about food having a hold on you. I'd eat and eat and EAT until I really started working out. Now, I'm not so hungry anymore. Food, too, is an outlet for me/us when we go somewhere. My only suggestion is to order from the child menu, only an appetizer, or a salad. Skip the all you can eat places. As for the dread, you sound depressed hon. Please see a doctor. I'm really concerned about you.

Anonymous said...

Your dread feeling sounds hormonal. Maybe low on progesterone. You might get your hormone tested and see or go to a natural food groceries and buy a tube of progesteron and put just a small amount on (size of a pea), Have you started menopause or perimenipause?