I have been pondering how my running changed literally overnight. I was running with my running partner and was having abysmal runs. Horrid! I stood up for myself and my self worth and stopped bowing to this friend and letting her put me down. It ended the friendship and immediately, overnight my running changed.
I wondered if it was the high from running the Krumpe's Donut Alley Rally. Hmm, it could be. Running a race imparts a certain energetic vibe is motivating. But seriously, I had run the Paws on the Pavement this year and didn't get any kind of motivational umph.
Then today I saw this on facebook this morning and I realized........
This friendship that was couched in 'encouragement' was actually negative to me. In terms of running, looking back, running with a partner that would never run beside me but always paced herself 5 feet ahead of me was negative. What kind of motivation is that? I could NEVER catch up. I was always chasing her down. It's no wonder I was running horrible. Her actions were feeding my mind. They were making me feel insufficient and incapable.
I stopped running with her, and completed the Krumpes run at the same time and I realized that it was all in my mind. I couldn't run because my mind told me that I couldn't run. My MIND told me that I was incapable and not a runner. It doesn't matter who or why the thoughts were put into my mind. They were there and I believed them. The minute the negativity left...my mind cleared and I began to soar!
Now, if I can just get back to running and not feel like I need to collapse for a bit to recover after a measly 2.5 mile run, followed by a day of napping, I will be good! But that's a whole different story!
As for running, I ran those two short runs last weekend. Other than that I have taken two weeks off. I'm planning on running this weekend and starting back onto my training schedule. I am hoping the exhaustion will right itself with time.....and maybe some of the exhaustion is lack of exercise in my life!
Eating....lets not talk about it...however....this moment, right now, right here is the time to fix it. No waiting until Tomorrow, or Monday....it's right now. On a good note, I have tracked!